I hate that I'm not as close to certain people as I used to be.
I hate that I feel like I appreciate allot of people so much more than they appreciate me. Do my friends miss me as much as I miss them?
I can be jealous I guess thats what this comes down to.
I just miss old times, when my friends were my friends. When they actually wanted to hang out and have fun with me. But is that the price you pay for being in a relationship?
I hate that I have to be attached to someone. That I do this to myself, I could easily go hang out with friends and it could be like old times, but something holds me back. And i know its not him at all thats doing it, it's entirely me. He wants me to go do things! But then again it would be me making all the effort with most of those people. I don't even know why I bothered.
Maybe I am clingy. Maybe I should get out more.
I'm a shadow of my former self. I'm losing myself and its all my doing.
Maybe things other than location need to change. Something is wrong with me, I'm just not entirely sure what it is. I would fix it otherwise.
Maybe I need to have some fun? Show my friends how much they mean to me?
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